Got the results for the "pre-cancer" in my cervix. Apparently it's what they call a "low-grade" so the only thing they want me to do is go back for another pap smear in 6 months. Yay. I love those. I think I've had more of those in the last few months than I ever have in my life.
I'm glad that's over with! Now we're just crossing our fingers for Monday on the results for the lump in my neck. I do have 2-1/2 inches of stitches down my neck from it! The doctor originally said about an inch...yeah, not so much. I took the bandage off and was very surprised! I guess they had to though since they ended up taking the largest of the 3 lumps out. It's almost over!!
So, I'm going through baby withdrawals! I have been around babies so much the last couple weeks and now this week, nothing! If you have a baby, bring them over. Oh man, I'm pathetic...maybe I should just get one of my own. Great solution, right?
Now it's time to go do the dishes :(
Friday, February 27, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Well, that was fun...
I'm sitting on the couch watching TV and full of Lortab :)
The surgery and recovery went really well, better than I thought. I was surprisingly not nervous or scared, just wanted to get it over with and be done with all of this. I guess after it was over, they went and spoke with my mom and he said they removed the biggest (I think) of the 3 lumps. He said that it didn't look cancerous and then he gave it to the guy that will do the testing (can't remember what he's called) and he also said it didn't look cancerous, but that it was very strange and he had no idea what it was. Weird. This is a similar thing that happened to my mom when she had the mass removed from the inside of her throat. At first it was cancer (according to 3 doctors) and then after they removed it and biopsied it, it mysteriously wasn't anymore and all the doctors were baffled. The results for it should be back by Monday.
They didn't end up doing the other surgery yesterday. They just took samples so they could biopsy them and we'll hopefully get those results back on Friday.
Pheww. Now I better go cause this Lortab is really kicking in...
The surgery and recovery went really well, better than I thought. I was surprisingly not nervous or scared, just wanted to get it over with and be done with all of this. I guess after it was over, they went and spoke with my mom and he said they removed the biggest (I think) of the 3 lumps. He said that it didn't look cancerous and then he gave it to the guy that will do the testing (can't remember what he's called) and he also said it didn't look cancerous, but that it was very strange and he had no idea what it was. Weird. This is a similar thing that happened to my mom when she had the mass removed from the inside of her throat. At first it was cancer (according to 3 doctors) and then after they removed it and biopsied it, it mysteriously wasn't anymore and all the doctors were baffled. The results for it should be back by Monday.
They didn't end up doing the other surgery yesterday. They just took samples so they could biopsy them and we'll hopefully get those results back on Friday.
Pheww. Now I better go cause this Lortab is really kicking in...
Sunday, February 22, 2009
get ready for a cuteness overload!!
This weekend our friends Fuapau and Kata came to stay with us. They live in Oakland, CA right now, but have been here for a few weeks visiting family in Salt Lake. They are hopefully going to move back soon. They better cause I don't think I can wait that long to see them again! They have the CUTEST (don't even think of arguing) twin babies that I have ever seen. They are so well mannered and just so easy. They hardly cry at all, it's amazing.
Her bellybutton is as round as a quarter and sticks out like 3/4"!!
Sio doing a balancing act, I almost killed him!
Boy is 4 months old and girls are 8 months old
Believe it or not, the boy is a Tongan baby too!! Blonde hair and blue eyes!!
The dad of the twins is on the right, the dad of the boy is 2nd to the right.
We all went to dinner last night. Then tonight we had all of them over for dinner. It was so fun to see everyone. Here are lots of pictures:
Her bellybutton is as round as a quarter and sticks out like 3/4"!!
Sio doing a balancing act, I almost killed him!
Boy is 4 months old and girls are 8 months old
Believe it or not, the boy is a Tongan baby too!! Blonde hair and blue eyes!!
The dad of the twins is on the right, the dad of the boy is 2nd to the right.
TONS of pictures, I know. I just couldn't decide which ones to post, so I did all of them :)
I was so sad when they left. It was weird, I didn't think I would be so emotional when they were gone. I'm gonna miss them so much and might have to make a trip to California just to see them again soon. I need a baby, maybe that will help...
Friday, February 13, 2009
Ugh.
I went to my regular doctor yesterday. I love him. He will just tell you how it is and won't feed you lines. He was able to access all the labs/tests/crap that I have had done over the last couple weeks and it turns out my OB-GYN was skirting around some issues. She didn't want to freak me out, I guess. I have "pre-cancer" on my cervix. I didn't know that you could have "pre-cancer." I guess you can. Let's add that to the list of fun. I have to have dead tissue and junks removed with a freezing technique (kinda like when they freeze warts off your hands) from my cervix. That will be the day before they remove the lump. yay. And FYI to all my good buddies out there that lucked out to have the same disease, the "pre-cancer" on the cervix is because of the PCOS.
He also decided to do more blood tests and load me up with meds. Among the many was 300 mg of Iron a day. That's almost 17x your normal daily value!! Eek. Hopefully it starts making me feel normal again. I have to go back in 2 months to see if it works or not.
He also decided to do more blood tests and load me up with meds. Among the many was 300 mg of Iron a day. That's almost 17x your normal daily value!! Eek. Hopefully it starts making me feel normal again. I have to go back in 2 months to see if it works or not.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Daisies :)
I just had to post pictures of these beautiful flowers that my mom's friend brought me today at work just to let me know she was thinking of me!! They are perfect. I love daisies! Gerber daisies are my favorite:
Surgery, Bowling, & Roasted Pig!
I just want to say thanks to everyone for your words of encouragement and prayers. It really helps me keep my sanity through all of this :)
So, I went back to see my OB-GYN after taking some really nasty and smelly antibiotics for 10 days. Turns out it didn't get smaller. She didn't even do an ultrasound, she just felt it and could tell that it didn't go down enough to her satisfaction. I was not shocked by this because I had been feeling it over and over again for the last 10 days and knew it hadn't gotten smaller. It was weird because Saturday or Sunday I actually started noticing that it hurt a little and that it got harder to the touch. I don't know what that means??
I went to an ENT today to see what he thought we should do about it. At first he suggested going on more antibiotics, doing an ultrasound, and watching it. Then he realized that I had it for months and had already had an ultrasound done. He then decided that I will be getting a needle biopsy done next week. This will test the fluids that are in it and hopefully tell us what it is. He said it could be swollen lymphnodes from when I was sick that have just taken an extraordinarily long time to go back down, thyroid cancer, lymphoma, etc. Really he had no idea. He also decided that I should get it surgically removed the following week!! I don't know if this will change after they get results of the biopsy, but I am in the schedule so that I won't have to wait longer. He said the needle biopsy will help let them know the underlying issue, like if it's thyroid cancer, they will know that they need to do something with my thyroid and will be able to do it at the same time the lump is being removed.
We also discussed my anemia. He said for now, he doesn't think the two are related. This means that I go to yet another doctor tomorrow and he will further test other things to see what is causing the anemia, since my OB-GYN had already ruled out what the obvious factors would have been.
Doctor on the 12th. The needle biopsy on the 18th. Pre-op on the 23rd. A follow-up on some other things with my OB on the 24th. Surgery on the 25th. pheww. Did I remember them all?
Things are definitely stressful! Trying to deal with insurance changes in the middle of all this, keeping doctors appointments all straight, trying to not worry, and trying to plan getting sealed in the temple...all while trying to work and attempting to have a normal life.
Things could definitely be worse. Thankfully, my work is so easy to deal with. They have always been easy to work around schedules. I basically make my own schedule and can for leave for things when needed. I was a little worried with the economy how it is and how things would play out. They layed a guy off yesterday and had everyone cut back on their hours. My boss reassured me yesterday that I am a vital part in the company and that no matter what happens, with the economy or my health, that I will always have a job if I want it. That was a huge relief!
I am definitely worried, but know that things will work out. I am drawing strength from friends and family and they have showed me that you can still be positive in the most horrible of situations.
**In better news**
We are going bowling! We have only been once together and it was really fun, so I'm super excited. My work has a party every year about this time and for the last couple of years, we go bowling and have pizza. I'm sure it will be really fun!
We are also going to a wedding on Valentine's Day. Please excuse me while I barf! No offense to anyone, but that is way too cheesy for me! The groom is Tongan and friends with Sio, so at least the food will be really good! We are having roasted pig among many other delicious Tongan food! wahoo! We'll get to see a lot of friends from Salt Lake that we haven't seen in months and months and do some much needed catching up with everyone.
We were planning on being sealed in the Logan Temple in July. Turns out they are closed for the majority of the month for repairs. We are moving the date up to May if everything works out! We are trying to work it around when my Grandparents can be there. We really, really want them to be there. They and my parents both got married in Logan and it has always been my favorite. They are very special to both Sio and I, so cross your fingers that it all goes according to plan!
So, I went back to see my OB-GYN after taking some really nasty and smelly antibiotics for 10 days. Turns out it didn't get smaller. She didn't even do an ultrasound, she just felt it and could tell that it didn't go down enough to her satisfaction. I was not shocked by this because I had been feeling it over and over again for the last 10 days and knew it hadn't gotten smaller. It was weird because Saturday or Sunday I actually started noticing that it hurt a little and that it got harder to the touch. I don't know what that means??
I went to an ENT today to see what he thought we should do about it. At first he suggested going on more antibiotics, doing an ultrasound, and watching it. Then he realized that I had it for months and had already had an ultrasound done. He then decided that I will be getting a needle biopsy done next week. This will test the fluids that are in it and hopefully tell us what it is. He said it could be swollen lymphnodes from when I was sick that have just taken an extraordinarily long time to go back down, thyroid cancer, lymphoma, etc. Really he had no idea. He also decided that I should get it surgically removed the following week!! I don't know if this will change after they get results of the biopsy, but I am in the schedule so that I won't have to wait longer. He said the needle biopsy will help let them know the underlying issue, like if it's thyroid cancer, they will know that they need to do something with my thyroid and will be able to do it at the same time the lump is being removed.
We also discussed my anemia. He said for now, he doesn't think the two are related. This means that I go to yet another doctor tomorrow and he will further test other things to see what is causing the anemia, since my OB-GYN had already ruled out what the obvious factors would have been.
Doctor on the 12th. The needle biopsy on the 18th. Pre-op on the 23rd. A follow-up on some other things with my OB on the 24th. Surgery on the 25th. pheww. Did I remember them all?
Things are definitely stressful! Trying to deal with insurance changes in the middle of all this, keeping doctors appointments all straight, trying to not worry, and trying to plan getting sealed in the temple...all while trying to work and attempting to have a normal life.
Things could definitely be worse. Thankfully, my work is so easy to deal with. They have always been easy to work around schedules. I basically make my own schedule and can for leave for things when needed. I was a little worried with the economy how it is and how things would play out. They layed a guy off yesterday and had everyone cut back on their hours. My boss reassured me yesterday that I am a vital part in the company and that no matter what happens, with the economy or my health, that I will always have a job if I want it. That was a huge relief!
I am definitely worried, but know that things will work out. I am drawing strength from friends and family and they have showed me that you can still be positive in the most horrible of situations.
**In better news**
We are going bowling! We have only been once together and it was really fun, so I'm super excited. My work has a party every year about this time and for the last couple of years, we go bowling and have pizza. I'm sure it will be really fun!
We are also going to a wedding on Valentine's Day. Please excuse me while I barf! No offense to anyone, but that is way too cheesy for me! The groom is Tongan and friends with Sio, so at least the food will be really good! We are having roasted pig among many other delicious Tongan food! wahoo! We'll get to see a lot of friends from Salt Lake that we haven't seen in months and months and do some much needed catching up with everyone.
We were planning on being sealed in the Logan Temple in July. Turns out they are closed for the majority of the month for repairs. We are moving the date up to May if everything works out! We are trying to work it around when my Grandparents can be there. We really, really want them to be there. They and my parents both got married in Logan and it has always been my favorite. They are very special to both Sio and I, so cross your fingers that it all goes according to plan!
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Thoughts
It's been very interesting trying to prepare myself mentally for the doctor on Monday and the news on Tuesday. I think after getting a Father's blessing last night from my Dad, that it is definitely something more than a few lumps...I just don't know what. I know that Heavenly Father will help get me through whatever it may be, I just need to focus on that and know that He doesn't give me any trials that I can't handle.
I have always loved this quote and thought I would share:
“The more I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company…a church…a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past…we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude…I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you…we are in charge of our Attitudes.”
--Charles Swindoll
My mom also just showed me this one and I really like it:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, whom am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
You're playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
--Nelson Mandela
I have always loved this quote and thought I would share:
“The more I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company…a church…a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past…we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude…I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you…we are in charge of our Attitudes.”
--Charles Swindoll
My mom also just showed me this one and I really like it:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, whom am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
You're playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
--Nelson Mandela
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